suri hati... what?

I finally finished reading Suri Hati Mr Pilot. I wanted to read the book first before continuing on the drama. The drama has been not so bad, the acting definitely needs a lot of improvement. And the whole awkward english sentences definitely got to go! But oh well, I'm not even an actress so I should really just shut up 🙊

I used to be so into dramas but lately, I haven't gotten the mood to watch dramas. Also, time ain't really on my side.

The plot is pretty cliché. I don't know why but a lot of Malay dramas these days are about being forced into marriage with someone you do not even like and then you fall in love and tada, happily ever after. 

I mean, come on. You can always say no when the Tok Kadi asks whether you wanna get married to the person that you don't even love. How can you marry someone you don't even love? Oh shit, I'm sounding more like Warda, the main girl in this novel HAHA let's hope I don't run away on my engagement day or my wedding day in the future. 🌚

One thing that I really can never understand... in this novel, Warda calls her husband Mr. Pilot?! Isn't that hella awkward? I mean I get that initially it's like your crush's code name. But do you tell him his code name once you know he's in love with you? Is this normal or am I just the only one who finds weird? Code names for guys are meant for your girlfriends to gossip with each other, right? 

Oh well, can you imagine if I write all these love stories about my crushes? I used to write short stories about love in Malay and even won awards for it. I'll start with...

Suri Hati Mr. Singer (That'll be about me and bae.)

Just kidding, I'm too lazy and the story plot will be too merepek.

he said yes

Daya and I have been busy so we haven't really been spending REAL time together. Most of the time, we meet about 2 hours just to work out or eat some McDonalds' together.

Things also have been rough for the past few days but we're good now. All I can say is that, things are getting better from here. Definitely.

Yesterday, we finally headed out to Lau Pa Sat and Bayfront to have some time together. Also, to plan on what to say to Dad because we wanna go on a trip together...

People have been telling me that my parents are not strict when I told others that they are strict. But trust me guys, they are. Especially Dad. He is strict and well, what luck, he has a stubborn daughter who will do whatever it takes to get what she wants.

I was soooooo nervous when I wanted to ask him for permission to go on this trip with Daya. I even had this urge to do a powerpoint presentation for him.

He asked me for details on the trip, who I'm going with, whether I'm sure I'll be safe because 2 anak dara going to a foreign country sounds so dangerous... the list goes on. He asked me so many questions, I swear it felt worse than going for a job interview.

Of course, I had everything under control. I practised it with my trusted buddy before I went home. And me being me, of course I had every answer to his annoying questions.

And today at about 9 p.m., he said YES. I swear it felt like I proposed to a guy for his hand in marriage and he agreed to marry me! 🎉

Right now, I'm in the midst of planning my trip. I don't know about you, but I'm hella excited! So many things I wanna do honestly, but that's not possible because time and budget constraint... I even wanted to add "bathing with elephants" into our itinerary.

May Allah SWT protects the two of us during this trip and we bring nothing but all the good things with us back home!

I know Dad is honestly so worried and that only means he loves me... He even jokingly told me that he would book a hotel opposite us to spy on us. Pretty sure he ain't joking tho. Dad I got this, you gotta trust your daughter.

My brothers are jealous because I got to go on a holiday with my friend and they kept saying how unfair it is I got this whole thing called "freedom" but really boys, you guys will get a taste of it soon. For now, let me play the mean sister role and flicks my hair in front of you guys. 💅🏼

Thank you Allah SWT for such understanding and loving parents, also for amazing friends around me.

Shopping Queen Nenek

Grandparents, oh they have a special place in my heart.

They can do anything, and everything is still all good.

Today Nenek got me really pissed because she spent a bomb on something so useless. If you're watching Shopping King Louis, Nenek's spending habit reminds me of Louis. Watch the drama if you haven't! You will understand how frustrated I was with her just now. I really felt like I was on fire when I got to know of her recent buy. Things are good now, of course.

I know I shouldn't be angry because that's her money, so it's her choice to buy what she wanna buy but I just can't help it. She's soooooo easily swoon by all these strangers that try to sell her stuff. You can just try to sell her anything by saying this and that, next thing I know it's already on my dining table or some corner of my house. 

I swear I got my shopaholic genes from her 😒

healthy change

When I told my friends I've not been on social media much, they don't seem to believe me. But really guys, I've been really inactive on social media compared to before. 

I barely check my Instagram now, maybe like 4 to 6 times in a day. I used to check them like more than a hundred times a day. 

I'm super active on Snapchat on some days, and then BOOM I'm back into the no-snapchat cave. 

I tweet lesser than normal now, I used to be the girl who posts like maybe 100 tweets a day. 

As much as I'm tired of how people define you by your social media accounts, I still keep my accounts because there are just too many memories with my social media accounts. I can safely say that I grew up with social media. Come on, my whole generation do. 

I'm loving this change, and I'm slowly finding it a healthy change. Because I realize I'm able to live in the moment better than before. I still do take out my phone once in a while when I'm out to capture special moments so that I can one day go back and reminisce those days again.

Just like how I love reading this blog (and my previous blogs) and watch my dear self grow.

I used to even freak out over what to eat for recess and I blogged about it?! Can you guys believe it? I was so lame.

Things have changed and so far, I'm enjoying every single moment of it.

lame movie

I've been keeping myself busy and finally just now, after months, I went to watch a movie.

Andy Lau has a new movie titled Mission Milano so I just couldn't help it and told myself that I had to catch it no matter what. Lucky for me, Daya is so sporting and went to watch it with me. I'm actually quite a fan of Andy Lau, but of course not as crazy as how I am with my Korean boys HAHA

The movie was LAME. Like legit, MEREPEK. I thought it'll be like all cool but the feeling after watching this movie was the same when I went to watch From Vegas to Macau 3. So merepek, I don't even know why I wanted to watch this movie. I mean, come on what happened to the good old Chinese movies? Same feelings like how I feel for Hindi movies nowadays...

Someone has gotta save the entertainment industry as soon as possible man.

Nonetheless, I still had a good time with Daya.

Oh, and I didn't get diarrhea from her kimbap. So it's all good. She can now consider opening a Korean restaurant.

bad cravings

So I'm taking a break from studying now, and my mind is thinking about cooking some good hot ramen once I'm done with my to-do list for today. I don't know why but every single time I'm studying, I crave for some instant noodles so badly. Sometimes I will give in and whip up some maggi, sometimes I ignore and try to sleep the craving away.

I know snacking while studying is normal. Good, if you snack the healthy stuff. But we all know how much I'm not into the whole health food. Once in a while, I do try to cook something healthy like ginseng soup, or add some vegetables on my plate. (Maybe like one slice of lettuce?)

But one thing I can never understand, why do I always crave for unhealthy food? Why don't I crave for carrots? Or salad without any dressing? Or healthy juice drink? I definitely need to change my diet as soon as possible. NEED, if I wanna age well.

What do you crave for when you're studying or doing some work?

finding happy self

How's everyone feeling right now?

I haven't been updating much because I'm finding this "happy" self in me back. Yeah, I've been feeling rather down for the past few months and I'm still figuring out why... Probably because I've been overthinking about my future way too much, to the point I'm just wasting my time. Really.

Anyway, I just got back from a jog. Oh it feels so good to be running twice a week now. I've been on my third week. Ever since school starts. Let's see how long am I gonna keep up with this crazy life I'm on. 

That aside. Daya made Kimbap for me. (Honestly, I think she made it for someone else. But it's okay, at least she gave some to me.) I shall try the Kimbap now, even though she told me it tasted like shit. Let's hope it tastes pretty decent and my sensitive tummy can take it. 🙂

BIGBANG MADE [V.I.P] TOUR Fanmeet in Singapore

Bigbang is here again, and of course I had to go!

I've attended so many festivals and concerts, Bigbang concerts are still my favourite ones. You want some UMF kinda music... you'll get that at Bigbang's concert. You want a little hip hop, you'll also get it at Bigbang's concert. You want some ballads, well... you can get that from Bigbang too, kinda. Their concerts are a must-go for me! Heck, they can come down to Singapore for anything... I'll just make myself possibly there!

This time round, Bigbang is here for a fanmeet. I saw people updating about today's fanmeet and how perfect everything was... I'm sorry (nah, not really) but I beg to differ. The boys looked so tired, they played only one game with fans and... the stage looked way too budget for Bigbang. I know it's just a fanmeet so I shouldn't expect live band playing like a concert... but really the sound system ain't that great. Basically, if you've been to Bigbang's previous fanmeets and concerts, you'll know how bad it is.

Nevertheless, I still had fun. I enjoyed dancing and screaming my heart out tonight. I didn't even bother to take out my phone and spam it with videos and photos like I usually do. All I did was just take a few shots here and there, and enjoy the night away. 

They shared that they're coming back here again and all I could think of is... stop it YG, I need to save my money. Honestly, I do still wanna see them in Singapore again but... please give us fans more time to save up. Not just tell us about the concert date and expect the ticket sales date to be the next day.

This fanmeet is a good example. Luckily I had enough savings and got to know of people who can help me get tickets just in time so that I won't miss out too much.

A good concert/fanmeet experience usually happens if the organizer is a good one. 

#justsaying

They were a great bunch to hang out with tonight and the best part was... I didn't even plan to buy this T-shirt. They bought for fun, and I was the only one left who didn't wanna buy. Ended up I just got it because everyone else bought one. #definitelysleepingwithtaeyang

I hope Bigbang comes to Singapore again, preferably with other YG artists and The Band Six. 

Not because I know Bennie, but because I really love Bigbang's performances with live music.

I also wanna see other YG artists performing in Singapore.

Tried to pull off the whole Bigbang's girlfriends' (read: Min Hyorin) look, how did I fair?

BIGBANG 👑

more alone time

Current phase: Malay foooooood.

I haven't been myself lately and I'm not sure why. Lesser social life honestly, but I'm not complaining at all. In fact, I'm enjoying it. I guess as time passes by I'm starting to enjoy my alone time even more.

Today I went to MBS alone just to have some Mee Rebus. It just felt so good to be out spending time eating slowly (not really, finish it in 10 minutes because I've been wanting to eat it for weeks) and looking at other people, especially those with their families. It was great to see them laughing, crying, fighting and bullying their loved ones. Oh how I miss spending some time out with my family. We all have been busy so we haven't been going out as a family for a long time now.

I went home and spent some time with my brothers and Nenek, watching APM. Yuna won 1 award and Sona didn't even got nominated. The performances ain't that wow. Someone need to employ me to plan for next year's APM because seriously... it's pretty disappointing?

Nothing much has happened in my life. The only thing I'm looking forward to right now is...

BIGBANG 💕

Finally, I'm gonna meet them again after a year plus. As much as I'm excited for it, I'm also not excited over it because after this, I might not see them again for some time. Maybe I will, I don't know. YG just needs to stop making me spend money on their artists. Can't wait for this Sunday!

My article for Dean is up.

REBELs gather for DEAN 130 Mood: TRBL Autograph Session in Singapore 2016