Happy birthday to... me!
Officially 22 now, oh how time flies.
So many things have happened over a year. Can you believe it? This blog has stayed on for more than a year. Celebrated 2 birthdays with this blog. Honestly the longest blog I've had and I hope this blog stays so that one day when I'm old much more matured, I can read back and laugh at my young and free self.
If there is one thing I can never Allah SWT enough, it's having friends and family who really care for me. I don't have many friends now but what I do are many loved ones. Some of my friends... I don't consider them as friends. I consider them as my brothers and sisters.
If you ask me whether Daya is my best friend, I'll say yes but our relationship goes way beyond that. We're like sisters from different mothers. Are we lesbians? No. We just have a special friendship that I can never be able to describe unless you have found your best friend.
Nab, Chantagan, Azreena, Aisah... they're all special too. I don't share much about them, not as much as what I share about Daya, but every each of them is special.
With all my friends... I wanna grow old with them, I want all of us to be reunited in heaven.
Family is something I can never ever replace with. We fight, we quarrel, we laugh, we scream... we do everything mean and nice to each other. They say, air dicincang tiada putusnya. And I totally agree.
If I can ask for another family, I can't say I won't want a richer better livelier one. But I know a different family will mean a different me. I could have been more spoilt and annoying (probably hated by even more people) if I was in a different family. For that, I am thankful with my family. I'm grateful I have parents who are patient with each other.
I hope my future husband will be able to love my family like his own and I will try to love his family like my own.
Dear 22yo self,
You are slowly entering the adult life even though every part of you is still a kid. People expect so much of you and you're afraid of being a disappointment. But it's okay, you know what you have to do best. Keep Allah SWT close to you, your family and your friends close to you... and with that, you'll be able to conquer this temporary world. Don't worry about having your career figured out, don't worry about your love life... they've all been written by Allah SWT. Just continue to work hard in whatever you do and everything will fall into place just like how it has been written. Continue to spread love and positivity in this world and always be the best you can be at all times, don't lose yourself as you grow older. Age happily and gracefully!
Love, Yourself.
Happy 22nd birthday, Nur Syafiqah Bte Fadil 💕