I know it's just a matter of days with her, but damn the pain I go through with her at home... people would say I'm so weak and easily defeated but I know I've tried my best to endure and clearly I can't take it anymore.
Dear Yuna,
I hope you will get a more deserving owner than me. You've been nothing but a joy. The love and joy you spread around my humble abode... I thank Allah SWT for giving me the chance to cross paths with you. I'm sorry I'm too weak as an owner. I love you, really.
Love,
Your Weak Owner.
In a matter of hours, I'll bring her over to Nab's place. I hope she will be fine there.
To her future owner, I hope I can be friends with you so that I can get updates of her.
My heart doesn't wanna let her go, but I have to...
I collected the cat just now, and well I told Nab that I will just give it a try for 1 week first. Because first, the cat may not be able to adapt to my oh-so-messy house. Second, I need to adapt to it too.
I named the cat, Yuna because it's a female cat and I wanted it to be something Korean, something English, something Malay... basically a mix of everything. It's just a normal cat that you can find under your void deck... but really cute.
Now, where are photos of Yuna?
Right now, I'm having an allergy reaction. I just realized I can't get near cats or any furry stuff for a very long time... which explains why my carpets are only out when visitors call to say they're on their way to my house.
I have yet to take photos of it, or even snaps of it on my Snapchat. I thought I could do that the moment I bring her home. I have so many plans for Yuna even before she comes home. It's like... preparing for the arrival of a baby.
But... what luck! Just when I thought I can finally have my own pet cat... and to make matters even worse, right now I'm having difficulty to breathe because I can sense the dust, and hair.
Yes, I've turned into a completely different person now. I know.
Nestlo and I, oh what a heartbreaker
Today is a very special day for me. Mum is slowly opening up on adopting a cat. She has been saying NO to me so many times when I told her I want a pet cat. She told me I can try to take care of a cat for a week, and from then on, she will see if that cat can stay with us or... nah.
I've been reading a few hundred articles on how to be a good cat owner, and boy I still question myself if I can be a good cat owner.
My fellow cat lovers, I need your help.
Give me some tips on how to be the best cat owner.
I'm putting on my mask right now so while I'm waiting for the time to wash this clay mask off, I shall take some time to blog. I haven't been blogging for a few days now, and nope I'm not busy... I was just purely lazy.
I have been taking time to do some reading... well, I'm starting to read Malay novels all over again. Oh I can't describe how much I miss the Malay language. I used to love reading Malay novels, writing Malay stories... I could say I was pretty good at writing Malay love stories. I won awards during secondary school and JC days because of my love stories, what did I even know about love 😂
Love.
This issue has been haunting me for days, months, years. A group of my friends think I'm desperate for love. A group of my friends think I'm too slow on the whole topic of love. A group of my friends think I'm too choosy at finding love.
I'm 22 now. Should I be worried that I'm not making any effort on my dating life?
So many things have happened over a year. Can you believe it? This blog has stayed on for more than a year. Celebrated 2 birthdays with this blog. Honestly the longest blog I've had and I hope this blog stays so that one day when I'm old much more matured, I can read back and laugh at my young and free self.
If there is one thing I can never Allah SWT enough, it's having friends and family who really care for me. I don't have many friends now but what I do are many loved ones. Some of my friends... I don't consider them as friends. I consider them as my brothers and sisters.
If you ask me whether Daya is my best friend, I'll say yes but our relationship goes way beyond that. We're like sisters from different mothers. Are we lesbians? No. We just have a special friendship that I can never be able to describe unless you have found your best friend.
Nab, Chantagan, Azreena, Aisah... they're all special too. I don't share much about them, not as much as what I share about Daya, but every each of them is special.
With all my friends... I wanna grow old with them, I want all of us to be reunited in heaven.
Family is something I can never ever replace with. We fight, we quarrel, we laugh, we scream... we do everything mean and nice to each other. They say, air dicincang tiada putusnya. And I totally agree.
If I can ask for another family, I can't say I won't want a richer better livelier one. But I know a different family will mean a different me. I could have been more spoilt and annoying (probably hated by even more people) if I was in a different family. For that, I am thankful with my family. I'm grateful I have parents who are patient with each other.
I hope my future husband will be able to love my family like his own and I will try to love his family like my own.
Dear 22yo self,
You are slowly entering the adult life even though every part of you is still a kid. People expect so much of you and you're afraid of being a disappointment. But it's okay, you know what you have to do best. Keep Allah SWT close to you, your family and your friends close to you... and with that, you'll be able to conquer this temporary world. Don't worry about having your career figured out, don't worry about your love life... they've all been written by Allah SWT. Just continue to work hard in whatever you do and everything will fall into place just like how it has been written. Continue to spread love and positivity in this world and always be the best you can be at all times, don't lose yourself as you grow older. Age happily and gracefully!
Yesterday, I finally met Haris to get my Apple plug. That stickman treated me to Pizza Hut which he really didn't like... I thought the meal was okay, I mean I was so hungry anything seemed fine to me. Oh well, he got some angpao from his patient's family and he offered to treat me. Oh how lucky I am to have such good friends in my life! 😌
We then had desserts at Dazzling Cafe. So much regrets after that because we both bought one toast each, the portion for one toast was a little too much for one! Honestly we should have shared, it's okay I've learnt my lesson now. Do not be greedy.
After meeting him, I went to roam around town. I was hoping to get something for Ash because it was his birthday yesterday. And then... it just came to me! Balloons! Yes, I'm so into balloons now. Don't ask me why.
I bought two balloons for him, one "2" and one "4". It was hard to get a discount but I managed to get it! I wanted to get large ones like the ones I got for my birthday but I was scared if it'll be too difficult for him to carry. So I got for him the medium ones.
He has been wanting to meet up for karaoke for weeks and honestly I didn't know yesterday was his birthday until someone told me. I'm so glad he wanted to spend his birthday with us. Adeline and Ash were sad because they thought I had a party and I didn't invite them because I didn't consider close. And when I told them that it was a surprise party and Sam and Dickson were the ones who didn't check their DMs, guess who got scolded...
I didn't do much for Ash's birthday, just balloons and a small cake from Charlie Brown.
Let me share with you the story about the cake.
I wanted to buy the cake before the shops started to close so I wanted someone to help me with the whole decision-making on the cake. Adeline was so engrossed on the karaoke machine so I had to ask Sam to follow me by saying "Sam, can you accompany me to the toilet?" in front of Ash. Yes, can you believe it?! Thank god the birthday boy was so engrossed on singing, he didn't realize at all.
That's not the end yet. At first I went to some Japanese restaurant and they told me they only have Tofu cheesecake as well as Matcha cheesecake. I straight away went "Ew!" on the Tofu one... I mean you gotta be kidding me, tofu and cheesecake?! What a weird combination! I didn't wanna get Matcha because I was not sure if Ash eats Matcha (I found out he does, oh well) and Sam just had to comment, "He drank green tea just now, I'm sure he eats Matcha". I just wanted to be safe.
Then we ran up to Charlie Brown cafe at Cineleisure, thank god they sell Oreo Cheesecake. I bought one slice for him which really likes (but ended up being eaten by Sam not the birthday boy) and when the waitress asked me how many candles I need, I said "24 candles". Her jaw literally dropped and Sam screamed, "No! You're gonna burn that cake. Just one will do!" I swear we laughed so hard after that. Such a bimbo moment!
She eventually gave me 2 large candles and 4 small candles to represent 24.
I'm so glad Ash felt so touched and guess who wants to meet again next week? Yes, the birthday boy. I thought I was the only clingy one, guess I have found someone just like me. I have very few friends in university, but I'm glad I have some I can hold close to my heart.
So we are done with Ramadan this year, and I hope all of us will see Ramadan again next year. Why I love Raya? Because it's the time people all get together to dress up, forgive each other and just... have fun! Well, at least that's what I do during Raya...
This year is a little different for me. I celebrated Raya as an aunty for the first time. My family is pretty slow on the whole pro-creation part... Guess we all enjoy the whole dating, lovey-dovey part of the relationship. Not so much on cleaning baby's poo, changing diapers and lesser dating time, more parenting time.
Ayra turning 11 months, me turning 22yo
I haven't been sharing this much but recently my cousin (aka Ayra's dad) has been going in and out of hospital. It breaks my heart looking at my cousin and my aunt worrying about his health. I have attachment issues, I swear. Knowing that anyone I know is sick... gosh I'm all emotional but I try my best to keep it in. Most of the time, I failed.
I hope it's better now since my cousin got discharged just now. Ayra still needs so much love from my cousin. And well my cousin... gosh he can be 29 and a father now, but boy he's still a kid. Teasing and disturbing me for the thrill!
I thought he's the only guy like that but NO. My other cousin is also just like him. We had iftar last night and he couldn't stop teasing me as well. Just like a kid, just like before he's married.
My paternal side is expecting another girl in the family. I swear my paternal side... the whole girl game is pretty strong. So I'm gonna have another niece! My cousins really need to work on getting nephews because if they're gonna wait for me, it's gonna take some time...
Z's grandchildren with one of his daughters
Getting ready for Raya this year was also a challenge. So my family didn't buy any new raya clothes for 2 years already. We just reuse our old clothes. It's perfectly okay to us because we rarely wear all these "Raya-able" clothes anyway.
But this year.. oh wow. I'm always in charge of ironing the clothes for Raya and we all decided to go creamy-gold this year. Today, during the Eid prayers, it started to rain. My brothers and my dad usually wear their baju raya to prayers. The rain was no joke. It was all thunder and lightning and heavy, crazily heavy. CATS AND DOGS AND PROBABLY ELEPHANTS AS WELL kinda heavy. They came back home all wet. (pretty lucky that the praying area is very very near to our house because they could have gotten even more wet) They were so wet, I can actually perah their baju and get all the water.
So we decided to change the clothes for Raya. My family has this tradition of going all sedondon (basically means, same colour scheme) so I had to iron for the whole family a whole new set of baju raya. I sweated so much because we were all rushing. I had to bathe twice because I ain't gonna put makeup with my body and face all sweaty. ☝🏼
This year we decided to gather at Cik Ita's place for my maternal side and Mak Long's place for my paternal side. When I arrived at Cik Ita's place, my aunts were all talking about how hot the weather was. Really, I just need this country to be a little cooler but not too cold.
After the whole bermaaf-maafan part, all of us headed out to go to other relatives' houses. I'm so glad we still do this even though now Atuk is no longer with us. People ask me why I care so much about family and friends... I don't know how to answer them. I feel sometimes laughing and enjoying time with your loved ones is what keeps me going in life.
While waiting for our "drivers" to bring the cars to level one of the carpark
There's always time for selfies.
Syakir and Mum
I was trying to get a good selfie of myself but this two just couldn't stop photobombing.
Me tryna take my OOTD shot
Clearly too many photobombers in my life and it didn't end there.
They took a photo of themselves instead. 😒
Then they entered into the frame again.
But of course, I got my OOTD shot settled no matter what.
I hope everyone enjoyed the first day of Raya because I definitely did. And in this Syawal, I hope we all can forgive each other from the bottom of our hearts and mend all our broken relationships.
Come on, I only thought about him the whole time he was in Singapore that I didn't even sense a birthday surprise was coming up for me. He was a HUGE distraction. Honestly, he was the biggest reason why my birthday surprise this year was a success. I even teared and cried upon seeing my friends all together, and then I even cried more while hugging them.
I have special names for every single guy I like. It's like a code name.
For Taeyang, it's bae from his real name Youngbae. Sometimes I do call him Teydaddy because duh who doesn't want him to be the daddy of your kids?
For Chris Brown, it's CB which Daya always always always refers to as chibai. Chibai is a curse word in Hokkien which means vagina, I think. Not very sure because I don't speak that language, just know that it's something bad.
For Usher, well... I don't really have a code name for him. Maybe I don't like him as much as I think I do. But he is sexy, such a sexy daddy with his son.
If you're talking about real life guys I've met, well I do have code names for them too.
Remember Sonaone? Yes, he is a celebrity but hey I met him and we kinda have something going on. By something I meant... him following me on my Instagram and probably remembers me as the craziest girl who can't get enough of him. I call him my favourite Mama's boy, Sona, and he is the S that I always refer to on my Twitter.
My friends have been asking me who are Z, D, S and all the other letters that I have been using as a code. Sometimes they refer to different people. It's hard to predict who is who, and let's keep it that. Sometimes S refers to Sona, sometimes it can refer to other people. I like it that way.
Also, Sailor Boy. People have been asking me who is this Sailor Boy I keep going crazy over. Well, he is someone I have a crush on while I was in my gym phase. I call him Sailor boy because the first time I saw him, he was wearing a pair of white and blue stripes shorts.
And of course I can miss this out... for Jay Park, I call him my f*ckboy when really he hasn't done anything to me except... making me fall for his charisma and sexiness. Sometimes, I call him Abang Park.
Try to spot me, maybe?
So I was lucky to be given the opportunity to attend Jay Park's sharing session yesterday. It wouldn't have happened if it wasn't for Daya, really. The organizers texted us last minute that they have only 1 pass for his sharing session, so it was between Daya and I. And she gave me the chance to see him. I swear I have the BEST bff in the whole wide world, I'm so blessed thank you Allah SWT.
He didn't share much, just that the moment he answered my question and he said the word "Netflix" while looking into my eyes... Gosh! That boy really knows how to get my heart racing.
After the sharing session, we all took a photo together but they didn't allow us to get near him which really sucks. But it's ok, I'm still so glad that I got this near to him.
Our first picture together 💓
Time for someone to edit this photo and make it look like it's only me and my Abang Park hanging out together.
I can't describe enough how thankful I am towards Allah SWT right now after what happened last night. I posted the photo above on my Instagram, and people started wishing me for my birthday. I just have one answer for all these people. My birthday is not here yet, it's an advance birthday celebration.
If you're on my social media, I guess you know by now what I've been busy with for the past few days. Jay Park is here in Singapore for SHINE Festival, and well I've been busy covering every single event he's on. I mean, while he's in my hood, I need to get an overdose of him.
The organizers for this event were really nice. They even gave us 4 media passes for his performance. Sadly, Cynthia didn't join for this photo.
The weather was crazily hot yesterday. No wait, the hot sunny weather is back and I'm really praying for some rain to cool this country down a little bit. So yesterday we had to walk to a few areas of the whole festival. The festival was quite a huge one, they even closed the whole Orchard Road and there were ministers around.
Luckily I booked a room at Grand Park Orchard. A few weeks before this event, I found out that Jay would be staying at this hotel, so I booked it without even having second thoughts. Daya asked me if I wanna book a room there, and well that's where the whole magic happens.
I checked in early yesterday with Daya and Haris to rest before reporting for the event. But it all ended up to be a session to disturb Haris and he could only catch up on his sleep after we left for the event. He ended work at 8 a.m. last night and I called him 5 minutes before reaching his bus stop that I was in the cab, on the way to pick Daya up and then him. He just said, "Good job" and then laughed. God bless my friends.
Before I went off for Jay's event, I told Haris that he better give me a good birthday surprise when I came back. I invited some friends over to chill out with me, like a pre-birthday hang out session with me. But most of them told me that they couldn't make it. I was a little sad, but I got over it after thinking about Jay.
The moment I came into the room, I thought I entered the wrong room. And then I laughed because everything I said to Haris came back flashing again. I was amazed at first, like "Wow, did Syahirah and Haris do all these?"
Haris told us he went out, and he would be back late. I didn't expect anything at all. Syahirah made me sat on the bed while facing the window, little did I know... my friends were all hiding in the toilet. The toilet has a transparent window with blinds down.
When the blinds were brought up and I saw my friends all in the toilet, squeezing in the bathtub... I screamed. Because really, in my head... HOW? Just HOW!!! It was caught on video, but I'm not sure if I'm gonna edit and upload it on YouTube.
All of them did not know each other. None of them knew each other. They only heard stories of each other through me. And then, slowly... I got to know of how it falls into place.
Apparently Daya contacted all my friends behind my back through Twitter, Instagram and Snapchat. Tell me about it, the power of social media. She even direct messaged Sona and Bennie from The Band Six. I swear, whatever she's doing, it's creepy but it's so me? 😂
All of them took part in this video message, and really as much as I cringe looking at all of them, I'm so touched. I actually got out of my seat the moment I saw Bennie in the video. The fact that he was part of all of these and he remembers me... Gosh!
That is my first video on YouTube. Haris has been wanting me to make YouTube videos, so that video is the first to commemorate such an amazing day of my life.
Will I post more videos in future? Maybe. Hopefully.
Will I be the next YouTube sensation? We shall see. 😂
I am so glad that my friends can actually click together and be friends. I've always wanted for something like this to happen. My loved ones getting to know each other, and laugh together. The best feeling ever. I just can't describe enough how happy I was last night when I saw all of them laughing and talking with each other.
I could see the amount of effort they all put in just to surprise me after a long day of doing events. Even though my mind was all clouded by Jay Park, I swear he is the reason why this surprise was a success. Usually I could sense a little bit when people act differently, especially my closed ones. They're all those I contact almost every day. And being the clingy me, I usually can sense when they act differently.
But the fact that my head was all Jay Park and after the event, I was so tired and all I could think of was showering and sleeping... I didn't spot anything different about them. Amazing how my brain works sometimes!
All I really wanna thank is Daya. Getting closer to you when I was 19, and now here we are. I'm 22 and you're 25. Time flies, and I love how we have yet to get bored of each other. We text every single day, sometimes call and sometimes meet each other. May our friendship continue to last stronger than ever 💓 We need to stop trying to outdo each other with birthday surprises. I know this is not the end, but really we need to stop. You are one of the best things that ever happened to me! Love you so much 💕
Thank you Syahirah for being a good host, despite being sick. A year ago, I got to know you at Big Bang's concert and I can't believe our friendship just got stronger as time passes by. Giving up Bobby for you, I wouldn't mind because not everyday I meet nice friends like you.
Thank you Azreena and Aisah for helping out with the balloons. Meeting you 3 years ago, and getting even closer to you guys now... I'm loving every single moment of our friendship. Can you guys believe it... Aisah told me she has work and busy all that? And I actually trusted her. Gosh!
Thank you Chantagan for coming! Gosh you are the reason why my friends all can bond so easily... like how you made me open up to people during JC, you broke the ice for my other friends. You are one of the nicest friends I ever had! I still owe her a surprise from 4 years ago, and a proper birthday wish.
Thank you Haris for the cake! And really, I didn't think the surprise will really happen. I know you didn't do much. Even though you're always teasing me for my comical character, I'll not stop here. I mean, come on not everyday you meet someone like me 💁🏻
Thank you Cynthia for helping out with the party! Yesterday was our second meeting, and gosh it feels like I've known you for quite some time. Must be Jay Park vibes... And thank you so much for finishing the Samyang noodles with chilli padi for our loser team.
Thank you Kashib for being so sporting last night! I mean, when are you not?! And really, I think you should have a career change. Maybe not a lawyer, but a matchmaker. This boy can't stop trying to stir with me someone.
Thank you Fuad for making me pissed while I was having an event, lying to me, and then poof, you're at my party! I heard about how much effort you put in to make the perfect surprise party for me. Gosh, we just got to know each other less than 4 months ago? Or was it 3? I'm not sure myself because we're so close now like we've known each other for so long.
And lastly, thank you to Nab for the food! You've been so busy with work, I'm sad because yes, you know how clingy I am and now all my friends know how clingy I am... thank you for taking the time after work to come and surprise me. A month of not seeing you... do you know how much my heart aches? Thank you for everything! Love you boo 💕 We used to be enemies, but now we can't get enough of each other.
Thank you Allah SWT for writing this in my life book. 💓
I don't have many friends, and I know you don't need many.
You just need a few amazing ones to make you feel more blessed than before.
For having such amazing friends, thank you Allah SWT.
I'm so crazily busy these days. I'm not working or anything... Just doing events, hanging out with friends and spending time with family. That's enough to keep me occupied every single day.
Last week itself... I caught 2 movies! (Someone seriously need to get me a sugar daddy ASAP I'm broke)
Now You See Me 2 with Fuad 😌
Seriously thankful that he's been so understanding with how crazy I am. I first met him a few months ago thanks to MAEC, and wow this boy has seen my really bad habits and had to entertain my Nenek's request! I'm thankful to have people like him, Daya and all others who are close to me in my life.
Every single friend I have now, gosh I can never thank Allah SWT enough for them! They are so patient, and loving... and some are also funny and crazy. They may not be pretty, or handsome, or funny to others... but they are the best looking, funniest. Get to know them and really, you'll understand why I love my friends.
I also caught Central Intelligence with the other MAEC peeps last Sunday. That movie is so funny. It's Kevin Hart, of course it's funny! Black humour is probably my kind of humour HAHA
I also volunteered at Jamiyah with some of the Muslim Society girls last Wednesday. We had this personal Muslimah sharing session with some girls at the Jamiyah and I enjoyed every single moment of it.
The girls there... Gosh they reminded me of ME. They're all crazy over Malaysian celebrities. You name it, Ayda Jebat, Ashraf Muslim, Kamal Adli, Saharul Ridzwan... they even have some sort of fan wars among each other. Yes, exactly like how I can fight with people who are so against the idols I love. You do not wanna mess with my idols ☝🏼
Me with the guy who acted as Angah/Tengku Zaqif in Hati Perempuan
I swear I had the urge to show them this photo, because they were so crazy over Malaysian celebs. All I did was laughing at them and then I realized that "hey that could be how people view me when I talk about my idols" so shit just got real 🌚
I spent time with my Nenek and my aunt for a few days. I even ditched GOT7's press conference for the two special ladies. It's crazy what I can do for the people I love. I can let go of things I really love just for my loved ones. It scares me sometimes. (Not that I really love GOT7, I do like them but not like how I'm so crazily obsessed with you-know-who)
I did cover GOT7's concert. They were good! I fell in love with Mark. I was crazy over Jackson, because of Roommate. He was funny on that show, plus he's my age. But Mark, gosh that boy is so... attractive!
I'm getting busier than ever now that I am covering more events, because KMUSIC is gaining more attention from organizers in Singapore. I'm really glad that we are getting more recognition. Thank you organizers, please let us be your official media in the future! I hope one day I get invited to such events not because I have to cover the events, but because I am the main star of the events 😂
Now where do I sign up to be famous like idols? 💅🏻
Y'all can catch my recent event coverage with Cross Gene. They're a great bunch of people. My favourite is Casper. Totally Youngbae style 😛
KMUSIC is based in Australia so the boys thought we are from Australia and the funny thing is that... they thought Vancouver is in Australia. Guess I'm not the only one who's bad at geography, right?
They's really friendly, and at one point of time when I went "Oh my God!" well that's where they all started going "Oh my God!" imitating me. They even did it while on stage gosh annoying but I'll let it go. The whole time... they basically couldn't stop imitating the way I pronounced my words. I sounded weird that day because I was wearing my bands for my braces sighzzzz #istillloveyoucasper
Cross Gene is totally underrated, support them guys
(and support me, please #waitingformytimetobeaspopularasanidol)
I am so sorry if this update is as express as the bullet train. I wish I can update more, but I'm getting busier so it's getting harder to find time to update my blog (but I still love blogging and reading back what has happened) and now that I'm busy with cooking and baking, maybe I shall share some recipes soon. Gosh I have so much to share, but let's end it here for now. I'll update more soon!
Ramadan is indeed a beautiful month. You have the iftars, the prayers, the endless amount (but sadly, they're getting more expensive now) of bazaar food... Ramadan is more than just controlling your thirst and hunger, the month you try to improve your iman level.
Now that we're left about 10 days of Ramadan, everyone tries to increase their ibadah... waiting for that special night that only Allah SWT knows when. During these last 10 days, many Muslims especially the maks maks... they're busy preparing for Raya.
Right now, I'm pretty busy preparing for Raya. Few days ago, I finally fulfilled the promise I made to my little cousins. We finally baked together after so long.
Making of Cat's Tongue cookies
I'm a fan of plain biscuits. Cat's Tongue cookies or how the maks maks usually call it, Biskut Lidah Kucing... they're my favourite! If you display it in your house during Raya, I'm sorry but I'm capable of finishing the whole jar of cookies.
Cat's Tongue cookies
They turned out pretty nice! My little cousins carefully chose the colours so our cookies looked good. Honestly, I enjoyed every single moment of baking these with my little cousins. Even the cleaning up part.
We baked right after sahur till afternoon, and boy we baked so much... my aunt's maid had to stop us because there's no more space to put the cookies and kuihs.
Making of Pineapple Tarts
Yes, can you believe it? I made such old school kuih. Time to start accepting orders for all these kuih raya 💅🏼
Pineapple Tarts
The struggle to make these kuih raya was real... we kinda failed halfway but we didn't give up. I just love how my cousins try to "save" the kuih and then we got all nervous sitting in front of the oven, waiting for the kuih to bake. And when it comes out from the oven, we wait for the kuih to cool down and then see if it turns out well.
Nowadays, not many people bake their own kuih raya. I haven't done so for years. And when I started baking some few days ago, I feel the raya mood is coming and I'm all excited for raya!
If you feel like you're missing that raya mood, start with baking!
Better if you do it with your loved ones, a good way to spend time together!
In case you're wondering whether this is really me who's blogging, yup it is. Don't worry I won't talk much about Chemistry, because boy how do people study Chemistry? Oh wait, I should ask myself that... how did I survive Chemistry for a good 5 years of my life? I don't know myself.
I tried studying Chemistry again after years of not touching it and man, I just couldn't count how many times I yawned and almost fell asleep on my study desk. I can be on my study desk the whole day doing Maths and Economics shit... but Chemistry is just a no-no. I actually took a good 40 minutes just to complete that whole kinetic particle theory table.
With that, I have made up my mind.
To my future kids, I pray hard that you will get a father that is good in Science and has a talent in Arts, be it drawing, music, or literature... I'm not choosy on this. Hopefully you will inherit my love for Maths. And with this, may you use that smart brain of yours to solve all the problems in this world.
I've been out a lot the past few days, and yes I'm not doing anything now. Just sitting at home, watching cooking videos and then put on my Gordon Ramsay hat, hoping my dishes will turn out the way I want them to. Well, so far I can say I'm close to perfection but definitely not restaurant standard yet.
Last Friday, I met up with my OG mates and as usual, we had a great time hanging out till 4 in the morning. The boys stayed together till the first train. I rushed home just in time for sahur and of course, I got nagged at by Mum for going home late during Ramadan. My parents don't really have a curfew for me, but they nag sometimes when I go home late.
A short conversation I had with Gary on that night.
Me: Why do Chinese boys always play basketball and Malay boys always play soccer?
Him: Good question. Chinese boys are more selfish than Malay boys.
Me: Why do you say so? Are you selfish?
Him: Well, basketball... 1 ball for 10 people. But soccer, 1 ball for 22 people.
Gary is so supportive of me cooking at home, he's hoping one day I will invite him over to my place and he will judge my cooking skills. He's also hoping that I will serve him a good medium rare steak. That boy is so particular about his food!
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The next day, I had a great time with my paternal family. We had dinner at Kintamani restaurant. The food can still be improved, but my brothers and I still ate a lot because duh, it's buffet... how can you eat so little? Such a waste!
It was great to just laugh with my cousins and joke around with them even though most of us are now in our 20s and some are in their early 30s. We are all still the same. My cousins who are married with kids... gosh you will think marriage changes people but nah, so far my cousins are still as childish as before. But that's the joy. We still appreciate each other's company, and I'm thankful to have a family that always want to keep each other close to them.
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On Sunday, I woke up in the morning with my stomach aching so badly because I think I ate a little too much at the restaurant so my stomach probably felt overly stretched. I even decided to go MAEC with no makeup on... I've been trying to go out with makeup on as much as possible, trying my best to be more girly.
Fuad couldn't stop disturbing me about my no makeup face. One day, I will make him put on some makeup, give him a good makeover and make him fall in love with makeup. Just you wait, Fuad. 😈
Right after tuition, I went home to dress up to meet Shamimah and Shazilla, my primary school friends. It's getting harder to get everyone together but it's okay.
Shamimah is now busy working part-time while studying (gosh seriously, what am I doing with my life?) and Shazilla is busy working a shift job at the airport.
Shamimah and Shazilla
We had a good time catching up on each other's life. I'm happy to see how my friends are doing now. Shamimah is so excited about her boyfriend coming to Singapore this coming September (a German boy stole her heart) and she just got herself a cat. I'm just so excited to meet the cat. (Honestly, more excited to meet the cat than her boyfriend, but I can't say that because I have to play the best "best friend" card here.)
We shopped after that, did a lot of makeup shopping... Seriously, we have grown so much. 10 years ago, all we did was stressing over what to eat at the school canteen under the bench with the umbrella on it.
Shamimah decided not to buy anything that day, but just now she texted me that she did some retail therapy which added up to about SGD200. Shazilla is not a makeup kinda girl, so last Sunday, Shamimah and I kinda introduced her to the whole foundation, powder, blusher magic... I swear that girl felt like she's doing some maths equation shit the whole time. It's a whole new world for her.
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And on Monday, I went to accompany Daya to Geylang to get her baju raya. But I ended up buying a pair as well. Someone should really take my card away.
We felt so weak after walking all over Geylang. It's so hard to find the perfect outfit for raya. They're either too expensive or made up of uncomfortable material. Everything at the bazaar is so pricey this year, and I found out from Nab that the rent for her mum's stall is SGD70k for the whole Ramadan. It's just... crazy.
We went for dinner at The Ramen Stall and thought of stopping by at some cafe so that I can have some cheesecake. Really, I need help with this whole cheesecake phase I'm having. It's not going away at all... Oh well. We ended up at a cat cafe, and really I'm just so in love with cats nowadays.
One day I will open a cat cafe just for rescue cats.
Having family and friends who laugh and cry with you and always remind you of Allah SWT. 💕
Today, I finally met up with my 2013 girls. We all met in 2013 at a place where we all never imagined to be in. Funny thing is, we all prayed that we could click with one another even before we met each other. But things just got on our side, we could click right away and even up till now, we try our best to keep in close contact with one another.
We put our phones away tonight, and just had a good laugh on everything while eating Arnold's. From what do guys actually want from us girls and how we modified our own school uniforms to feel cool, to the current crazy rainbow highlight makeup trend. Everything was just perfect... we felt like we didn't even age a day. We still laugh like 3 years ago.
We are all different. But we all accept each other's differences, and we try to learn about each other's interests. We remind each other not to lose yourself, and of course to always keep God close to you. And with such amazing friends like them, you feel more loved than you already are.
I should be sleeping right now because I have to wake up for sahur later but since I'm waiting for my clay mask to dry up on my face, I shall take some time to blog 😬
So June 6 is one of the most important date to remember because that is the date when one of my closest friend Aisah got out of her mum's womb and from then on, she started making the whole world go crazy with her antics.
Being the best friend ever, I decided to treat her for dinner (read: buka puasa/break fast) and really, I am trying my best to improve being a friend to my friends. Honestly, I'm feeling guilty towards Aisah because I didn't get any present for her. Also, feeling super guilty for Chantagan... because her birthday falls on the 4th of June and I wished her late with no celebrations/presents. I wished her a day earlier last year thinking it was already 4th June and like how she said it to me, "Can you get your life together?" I totally agree. I need to get my shit life together.
Happy 22nd birthday, Aisah 💕
I wanted to treat her at Fika just now but sadly, the branch at Arab Street is closed under renovation so we both settled for I Am... Cafe. Not a good idea to order something heavy after the first day of fasting. We were both so full after that, we don't even wanna walk. Even shopping was too tiring for us.
Before I end this post, let me share with you something that we both couldn't stop laughing about before our dinner tonight.
Me: I love turtles, they're like the cutest thing ever. You watched TMNT already, right? Which one is your favourite?
Her: I like them as a group ah.
Me: Omg, I love Michaelangelo. You know Mikey?
Her: The short one?
Me: Yaaaaaaa, he's so cute. Omg he's so my type. I wish I could date him.
Her: I still can accept it if you say you want a pet turtle.
*later on walking towards I Am... Cafe*
Her: Omg look at that! It's Shrek The Musical.
Me: I love Shrek! I find him cute actually.
Her: I think you like things that are green. A dustbin, maybe?
Presenting to you, my now 22yo friend Aisah. How can she compare Mikey and Shrek to dustbins?! But that's her, always coming up with conclusions about me just by either staring at me or listening to whatever I have to say.
On another note...
To all the boys who love to dress in green, single and probably don't mind having a crazy girlfriend like me,
Ramadan starts tomorrow. I'm still trying to calm myself down thinking about how fast everything is going by, but at the same time, I'm really thankful Allah SWT gives me another chance to meet this holy month again. So many things I hope to accomplish this Ramadan.
Pray.
I'm guilty of this. So freaking guilty. I'm the laziest person when it comes to praying. But I realize that the reason why I'm always late for my appointments/meetups is because I can't even keep track of my time for my own God.
So I hope, starting from tomorrow, I'll try to fix this part. I hope I can even make the effort to pray when I'm out. This is really the hardest on my list, honestly. Come on, if you're a Muslim, you know the struggle to wake up early just for Subuh.
Less gossip talks.
Being a girl, let's face it, gossips keep conversations going. Talking about that girl who just change her boyfriend again, talking about how slutty some girls dress... the list just goes on. I really hope I can put a stop on this.
I hope we can all just talk about the good in people, and less of the bad. I know it'll be hard to stop myself from gossiping, but I hope I will do so. I feel most of the time we talk about others because we feel envious of them, or we are just unhappy with them. And for you to be happy, you have to be happy with others by throwing away all the unhappiness in you. So let's put a stop to gossips.
Exercise more.
I haven't been regularly working out and really, I know my body is getting out of shape and I'm not loving every single bit of it. I gain weight very easily, not sure if it's my metabolism rate going downhill or I'm just fated for it.
Working out just for the dream body is one thing... but the fact that my body is like an amanah from Allah SWT makes me feel even more guilty for not taking care of it well. That brings me to the next point.
Practise healthy eating habits.
When I'm lazy to buy food for myself, I have this habit of just cooking some instant noodles. I hope to go all no-instant-noodles for this one whole month. It should be easy, right?
Other than that, I hope I can eat more vegetables and fruits too. I'm very picky when it comes to this. I would eat it if someone feeds me. Very rarely, I will volunteer to eat it. Also, I hope to eat in moderation. If you know me well enough, you should know that I can really eat a lot... especially if the food taste so goooooood.
As of now, I can only think of these four in my must-achieve list for this Ramadan. At the end of the day, I just hope I will be a better Muslim than I was before because Ramadan is meant to make you improve yourself as a Muslim.
May you be blessed with love from Allah SWT this Ramadan 💕
Yuna's song with Jhene Aiko has been one of my most played songs recently. I'm not a huge fan of Yuna, but recently her songs have been so my type if you get what I mean. Listen to it, if you haven't.
Used to Love You - Yuna ft. Jhene Aiko
I wonder if you think about me
Now that you're out there on your own
You made it seem so easy
I wanna be just like you
I wonder if your heart is healing
You're going out so often now
I see the boys are helping you out
Are they just like you?
No regrets, no looking back now
Never left, you let me back down, no, no, no
Used to love you, used to care
But no more
I used to love you, used to care
But no more
I used to love you, used to care
But no more
I'm better than before
I can never understand why
I'm depending on a guy
To make me feel like I was special
I am special when am I
Keep running on in circles
I was such a slave for love
Now that I know better, I know better of my worth
I was young and I was foolish
Giving up my heart so easy to someone who didn't love me like I do
I was young and I was foolish
All I needed was my spirit and someone will come and love me like I do
You can skip watching this if you do not wanna cringe while watching me talk in video.
It was definitely a wonderful experience to interview Sungha Jung. I never thought I would do something like this in my life. My first interview was with Lunafly back in 2013. At that point of time, I was still adjusting myself with wearing braces. So I probably sounded weird when I interviewed them.
You can like, comment and share those videos. Make it viral if possible, at least I'm in it. Who knows, maybe I'll be invited as a guest on Ellen.
The past weekend VIXX was also here. I covered that event as well. You can read the articles here.
