as express as the bullet train

I'm so crazily busy these days. I'm not working or anything... Just doing events, hanging out with friends and spending time with family. That's enough to keep me occupied every single day.

Last week itself... I caught 2 movies! (Someone seriously need to get me a sugar daddy ASAP I'm broke)

Now You See Me 2 with Fuad 😌

Seriously thankful that he's been so understanding with how crazy I am. I first met him a few months ago thanks to MAEC, and wow this boy has seen my really bad habits and had to entertain my Nenek's request! I'm thankful to have people like him, Daya and all others who are close to me in my life.

Every single friend I have now, gosh I can never thank Allah SWT enough for them! They are so patient, and loving... and some are also funny and crazy. They may not be pretty, or handsome, or funny to others... but they are the best looking, funniest. Get to know them and really, you'll understand why I love my friends.

I also caught Central Intelligence with the other MAEC peeps last Sunday. That movie is so funny. It's Kevin Hart, of course it's funny! Black humour is probably my kind of humour HAHA

I also volunteered at Jamiyah with some of the Muslim Society girls last Wednesday. We had this personal Muslimah sharing session with some girls at the Jamiyah and I enjoyed every single moment of it. 

The girls there... Gosh they reminded me of ME. They're all crazy over Malaysian celebrities. You name it, Ayda Jebat, Ashraf Muslim, Kamal Adli, Saharul Ridzwan... they even have some sort of fan wars among each other. Yes, exactly like how I can fight with people who are so against the idols I love. You do not wanna mess with my idols ☝🏼

Me with the guy who acted as Angah/Tengku Zaqif in Hati Perempuan

I swear I had the urge to show them this photo, because they were so crazy over Malaysian celebs. All I did was laughing at them and then I realized that "hey that could be how people view me when I talk about my idols" so shit just got real 🌚

I spent time with my Nenek and my aunt for a few days. I even ditched GOT7's press conference for the two special ladies. It's crazy what I can do for the people I love. I can let go of things I really love just for my loved ones. It scares me sometimes. (Not that I really love GOT7, I do like them but not like how I'm so crazily obsessed with you-know-who)

I did cover GOT7's concert. They were good! I fell in love with Mark. I was crazy over Jackson, because of Roommate. He was funny on that show, plus he's my age. But Mark, gosh that boy is so... attractive!

I'm getting busier than ever now that I am covering more events, because KMUSIC is gaining more attention from organizers in Singapore. I'm really glad that we are getting more recognition. Thank you organizers, please let us be your official media in the future! I hope one day I get invited to such events not because I have to cover the events, but because I am the main star of the events 😂

Now where do I sign up to be famous like idols? 💅🏻

Y'all can catch my recent event coverage with Cross Gene. They're a great bunch of people. My favourite is Casper. Totally Youngbae style 😛

Getting To Know Cross Gene

Cross Gene Fanmeeting Live 2016 "Parallel World" in Singapore

KMUSIC is based in Australia so the boys thought we are from Australia and the funny thing is that... they thought Vancouver is in Australia. Guess I'm not the only one who's bad at geography, right? 

They's really friendly, and at one point of time when I went "Oh my God!" well that's where they all started going "Oh my God!" imitating me. They even did it while on stage gosh annoying but I'll let it go. The whole time... they basically couldn't stop imitating the way I pronounced my words. I sounded weird that day because I was wearing my bands for my braces sighzzzz #istillloveyoucasper

Cross Gene is totally underrated, support them guys

(and support me, please #waitingformytimetobeaspopularasanidol)

I am so sorry if this update is as express as the bullet train. I wish I can update more, but I'm getting busier so it's getting harder to find time to update my blog (but I still love blogging and reading back what has happened) and now that I'm busy with cooking and baking, maybe I shall share some recipes soon. Gosh I have so much to share, but let's end it here for now. I'll update more soon!

Raya mood, level up

Ramadan is indeed a beautiful month. You have the iftars, the prayers, the endless amount (but sadly, they're getting more expensive now) of bazaar food... Ramadan is more than just controlling your thirst and hunger, the month you try to improve your iman level.

Now that we're left about 10 days of Ramadan, everyone tries to increase their ibadah... waiting for that special night that only Allah SWT knows when. During these last 10 days, many Muslims especially the maks maks... they're busy preparing for Raya. 

Right now, I'm pretty busy preparing for Raya. Few days ago, I finally fulfilled the promise I made to my little cousins. We finally baked together after so long.

Making of Cat's Tongue cookies

I'm a fan of plain biscuits. Cat's Tongue cookies or how the maks maks usually call it, Biskut Lidah Kucing... they're my favourite! If you display it in your house during Raya, I'm sorry but I'm capable of finishing the whole jar of cookies. 

Cat's Tongue cookies

They turned out pretty nice! My little cousins carefully chose the colours so our cookies looked good. Honestly, I enjoyed every single moment of baking these with my little cousins. Even the cleaning up part. 

We baked right after sahur till afternoon, and boy we baked so much... my aunt's maid had to stop us because there's no more space to put the cookies and kuihs.

Making of Pineapple Tarts

Yes, can you believe it? I made such old school kuih. Time to start accepting orders for all these kuih raya 💅🏼

Pineapple Tarts

The struggle to make these kuih raya was real... we kinda failed halfway but we didn't give up. I just love how my cousins try to "save" the kuih and then we got all nervous sitting in front of the oven, waiting for the kuih to bake. And when it comes out from the oven, we wait for the kuih to cool down and then see if it turns out well.

Nowadays, not many people bake their own kuih raya. I haven't done so for years. And when I started baking some few days ago, I feel the raya mood is coming and I'm all excited for raya!

If you feel like you're missing that raya mood, start with baking!

Better if you do it with your loved ones, a good way to spend time together!

chemistry, no-no

In case you're wondering whether this is really me who's blogging, yup it is. Don't worry I won't talk much about Chemistry, because boy how do people study Chemistry? Oh wait, I should ask myself that... how did I survive Chemistry for a good 5 years of my life? I don't know myself.

I tried studying Chemistry again after years of not touching it and man, I just couldn't count how many times I yawned and almost fell asleep on my study desk. I can be on my study desk the whole day doing Maths and Economics shit... but Chemistry is just a no-no. I actually took a good 40 minutes just to complete that whole kinetic particle theory table.

With that, I have made up my mind. 

To my future kids, I pray hard that you will get a father that is good in Science and has a talent in Arts, be it drawing, music, or literature... I'm not choosy on this. Hopefully you will inherit my love for Maths. And with this, may you use that smart brain of yours to solve all the problems in this world. 

#chemistryaintmything

#scienceistoocomplicatedformybrain

What I've been up to...

I've been out a lot the past few days, and yes I'm not doing anything now. Just sitting at home, watching cooking videos and then put on my Gordon Ramsay hat, hoping my dishes will turn out the way I want them to. Well, so far I can say I'm close to perfection but definitely not restaurant standard yet.

Last Friday, I met up with my OG mates and as usual, we had a great time hanging out till 4 in the morning. The boys stayed together till the first train. I rushed home just in time for sahur and of course, I got nagged at by Mum for going home late during Ramadan. My parents don't really have a curfew for me, but they nag sometimes when I go home late.

A short conversation I had with Gary on that night.

Me: Why do Chinese boys always play basketball and Malay boys always play soccer?
Him: Good question. Chinese boys are more selfish than Malay boys.
Me: Why do you say so? Are you selfish?
Him: Well, basketball... 1 ball for 10 people. But soccer, 1 ball for 22 people.

Gary is so supportive of me cooking at home, he's hoping one day I will invite him over to my place and he will judge my cooking skills. He's also hoping that I will serve him a good medium rare steak. That boy is so particular about his food!

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The next day, I had a great time with my paternal family. We had dinner at Kintamani restaurant. The food can still be improved, but my brothers and I still ate a lot because duh, it's buffet... how can you eat so little? Such a waste!

It was great to just laugh with my cousins and joke around with them even though most of us are now in our 20s and some are in their early 30s. We are all still the same. My cousins who are married with kids... gosh you will think marriage changes people but nah, so far my cousins are still as childish as before. But that's the joy. We still appreciate each other's company, and I'm thankful to have a family that always want to keep each other close to them.

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On Sunday, I woke up in the morning with my stomach aching so badly because I think I ate a little too much at the restaurant so my stomach probably felt overly stretched. I even decided to go MAEC with no makeup on... I've been trying to go out with makeup on as much as possible, trying my best to be more girly.

Fuad couldn't stop disturbing me about my no makeup face. One day, I will make him put on some makeup, give him a good makeover and make him fall in love with makeup. Just you wait, Fuad. 😈

Right after tuition, I went home to dress up to meet Shamimah and Shazilla, my primary school friends. It's getting harder to get everyone together but it's okay.

Shamimah is now busy working part-time while studying (gosh seriously, what am I doing with my life?) and Shazilla is busy working a shift job at the airport.

Shamimah and Shazilla

We had a good time catching up on each other's life. I'm happy to see how my friends are doing now. Shamimah is so excited about her boyfriend coming to Singapore this coming September (a German boy stole her heart) and she just got herself a cat. I'm just so excited to meet the cat. (Honestly, more excited to meet the cat than her boyfriend, but I can't say that because I have to play the best "best friend" card here.)

We shopped after that, did a lot of makeup shopping... Seriously, we have grown so much. 10 years ago, all we did was stressing over what to eat at the school canteen under the bench with the umbrella on it.

Shamimah decided not to buy anything that day, but just now she texted me that she did some retail therapy which added up to about SGD200. Shazilla is not a makeup kinda girl, so last Sunday, Shamimah and I kinda introduced her to the whole foundation, powder, blusher magic... I swear that girl felt like she's doing some maths equation shit the whole time. It's a whole new world for her.

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And on Monday, I went to accompany Daya to Geylang to get her baju raya. But I ended up buying a pair as well. Someone should really take my card away.

We felt so weak after walking all over Geylang. It's so hard to find the perfect outfit for raya. They're either too expensive or made up of uncomfortable material. Everything at the bazaar is so pricey this year, and I found out from Nab that the rent for her mum's stall is SGD70k for the whole Ramadan. It's just... crazy.

We went for dinner at The Ramen Stall and thought of stopping by at some cafe so that I can have some cheesecake. Really, I need help with this whole cheesecake phase I'm having. It's not going away at all... Oh well. We ended up at a cat cafe, and really I'm just so in love with cats nowadays.

One day I will open a cat cafe just for rescue cats.

2013, 3 years ago

What is the secret to happiness?

Having family and friends who laugh and cry with you and always remind you of Allah SWT. 💕

Today, I finally met up with my 2013 girls. We all met in 2013 at a place where we all never imagined to be in. Funny thing is, we all prayed that we could click with one another even before we met each other. But things just got on our side, we could click right away and even up till now, we try our best to keep in close contact with one another.

We put our phones away tonight, and just had a good laugh on everything while eating Arnold's. From what do guys actually want from us girls and how we modified our own school uniforms to feel cool, to the current crazy rainbow highlight makeup trend. Everything was just perfect... we felt like we didn't even age a day. We still laugh like 3 years ago.

We are all different. But we all accept each other's differences, and we try to learn about each other's interests. We remind each other not to lose yourself, and of course to always keep God close to you. And with such amazing friends like them, you feel more loved than you already are.

I like green things, maybe

I should be sleeping right now because I have to wake up for sahur later but since I'm waiting for my clay mask to dry up on my face, I shall take some time to blog 😬

So June 6 is one of the most important date to remember because that is the date when one of my closest friend Aisah got out of her mum's womb and from then on, she started making the whole world go crazy with her antics. 

Being the best friend ever, I decided to treat her for dinner (read: buka puasa/break fast) and really, I am trying my best to improve being a friend to my friends. Honestly, I'm feeling guilty towards Aisah because I didn't get any present for her. Also, feeling super guilty for Chantagan... because her birthday falls on the 4th of June and I wished her late with no celebrations/presents. I wished her a day earlier last year thinking it was already 4th June and like how she said it to me, "Can you get your life together?" I totally agree. I need to get my shit life together.

Happy 22nd birthday, Aisah 💕

I wanted to treat her at Fika just now but sadly, the branch at Arab Street is closed under renovation so we both settled for I Am... Cafe. Not a good idea to order something heavy after the first day of fasting. We were both so full after that, we don't even wanna walk. Even shopping was too tiring for us.

Before I end this post, let me share with you something that we both couldn't stop laughing about before our dinner tonight.

Me: I love turtles, they're like the cutest thing ever. You watched TMNT already, right? Which one is your favourite?

Her: I like them as a group ah.

Me: Omg, I love Michaelangelo. You know Mikey?

Her: The short one?

Me: Yaaaaaaa, he's so cute. Omg he's so my type. I wish I could date him.

Her: I still can accept it if you say you want a pet turtle.

*later on walking towards I Am... Cafe*

Her: Omg look at that! It's Shrek The Musical.

Me: I love Shrek! I find him cute actually.

Her: I think you like things that are green. A dustbin, maybe?

Presenting to you, my now 22yo friend Aisah. How can she compare Mikey and Shrek to dustbins?! But that's her, always coming up with conclusions about me just by either staring at me or listening to whatever I have to say.

On another note...

To all the boys who love to dress in green, single and probably don't mind having a crazy girlfriend like me, 

time to hit me up ya.

the start of a beautiful month

Ramadan starts tomorrow. I'm still trying to calm myself down thinking about how fast everything is going by, but at the same time, I'm really thankful Allah SWT gives me another chance to meet this holy month again. So many things I hope to accomplish this Ramadan.

Pray.

I'm guilty of this. So freaking guilty. I'm the laziest person when it comes to praying. But I realize that the reason why I'm always late for my appointments/meetups is because I can't even keep track of my time for my own God. 

So I hope, starting from tomorrow, I'll try to fix this part. I hope I can even make the effort to pray when I'm out. This is really the hardest on my list, honestly. Come on, if you're a Muslim, you know the struggle to wake up early just for Subuh.

Less gossip talks.

Being a girl, let's face it, gossips keep conversations going. Talking about that girl who just change her boyfriend again, talking about how slutty some girls dress... the list just goes on. I really hope I can put a stop on this. 

I hope we can all just talk about the good in people, and less of the bad. I know it'll be hard to stop myself from gossiping, but I hope I will do so. I feel most of the time we talk about others because we feel envious of them, or we are just unhappy with them. And for you to be happy, you have to be happy with others by throwing away all the unhappiness in you. So let's put a stop to gossips.

Exercise more.

I haven't been regularly working out and really, I know my body is getting out of shape and I'm not loving every single bit of it. I gain weight very easily, not sure if it's my metabolism rate going downhill or I'm just fated for it.

Working out just for the dream body is one thing... but the fact that my body is like an amanah from Allah SWT makes me feel even more guilty for not taking care of it well. That brings me to the next point. 

Practise healthy eating habits.

When I'm lazy to buy food for myself, I have this habit of just cooking some instant noodles. I hope to go all no-instant-noodles for this one whole month. It should be easy, right?

Other than that, I hope I can eat more vegetables and fruits too. I'm very picky when it comes to this. I would eat it if someone feeds me. Very rarely, I will volunteer to eat it. Also, I hope to eat in moderation. If you know me well enough, you should know that I can really eat a lot... especially if the food taste so goooooood.

As of now, I can only think of these four in my must-achieve list for this Ramadan. At the end of the day, I just hope I will be a better Muslim than I was before because Ramadan is meant to make you improve yourself as a Muslim. 

May you be blessed with love from Allah SWT this Ramadan 💕

how do I be like yuna

Yuna's song with Jhene Aiko has been one of my most played songs recently. I'm not a huge fan of Yuna, but recently her songs have been so my type if you get what I mean. Listen to it, if you haven't.

Used to Love You - Yuna ft. Jhene Aiko

I wonder if you think about me

Now that you're out there on your own

You made it seem so easy

I wanna be just like you

I wonder if your heart is healing

You're going out so often now

I see the boys are helping you out

Are they just like you?

No regrets, no looking back now

Never left, you let me back down, no, no, no

Used to love you, used to care

But no more

I used to love you, used to care

But no more

I used to love you, used to care

But no more

I'm better than before

I can never understand why

I'm depending on a guy

To make me feel like I was special

I am special when am I

Keep running on in circles

I was such a slave for love

Now that I know better, I know better of my worth

I was young and I was foolish

Giving up my heart so easy to someone who didn't love me like I do

I was young and I was foolish

All I needed was my spirit and someone will come and love me like I do

future guest of ellen

You can skip watching this if you do not wanna cringe while watching me talk in video.

It was definitely a wonderful experience to interview Sungha Jung. I never thought I would do something like this in my life. My first interview was with Lunafly back in 2013. At that point of time, I was still adjusting myself with wearing braces. So I probably sounded weird when I interviewed them.

You can like, comment and share those videos. Make it viral if possible, at least I'm in it. Who knows, maybe I'll be invited as a guest on Ellen. 

The past weekend VIXX was also here. I covered that event as well. You can read the articles here.

Sungha Jung Live in Singapore 2016

VIXX Live Show in Singapore 2016