syakir is now 16

Sometimes I forget that my little brother is not so little anymore. He's still a baby in my eyes, because this boy is still oh so manja sometimes and then I feel soooooo geli but I actually like it!

He's finally 16 now. Omg really? This boy who used to sleep with me, used to yearn for my hug before he fell asleep.... ah I can feel that I'm gonna tear up soon.

Oh well, it's a matter of time before he starts bringing a girl home and I'm no longer the only girl in the family. I hate this. Growing up really sucks.

Whatever I'm doing now, if it's not for my future kids, it's all for you my brothers Syafiq and Syakir and also, for our beloved parents.

I want nothing but the best for us. 

i am still cute

19 April 2017, a new me.

If you don't already know, I've taken out my braces like finally! I felt like a newborn the moment I took them off.

Everyone kept asking me when would I be taking it out, why does it take so long for me and oh god, if I can list down all the questions, I would. (But I'm too lazy for that.)

I wish I had blog my way through this whole braces journey.... I actually tried, but I kinda forgot which old blog of mine did I draft the post in. This is why physical diaries are so much better. But oh well, I want to have pictures to remind me in future. 

Anyway, it all started in late 2013, around December. So I've been having this issue of ulcers and bleeding... because of the way I bite my teeth. So I knew I had to get it fixed as soon as possible before it gets even worse. 

I mean if you know me even before I put on braces, you would know how bad my teeth was. Never mind, let me show you.

So this was taken right after I put on the top row first. Gosh, my teeth looked soooooooo bad omg.

I remembered how awkward it was for me to smile the first few days. I felt weird. I kept going in front of the mirror, trying to practise how to smile less creepily... but oh well let's just say, I'm born with this creepy smile la.

I also couldn't close my mouth properly. Was it painful? Yes, but bearable. Now that I think of it, it's actually pretty worth it.

The first few people I met after putting on braces were these two ladies up here. 

I tried my best to smile less awkwardly guys, I really did.

Oh, I also remembered I went to Abang Zuhri's engagement days after putting braces on....

The struggle to eat..... I remembered staying away from rice. I remember taking noodles, and I didn't even chew it. I just... gobbled it down. It felt so painful when I tried to chew my food!

Also, the first Korean stars that met me with my braces on..... this was before meeting Lunafly.

After I slowly got comfortable with my braces, I couldn't stop smiling with my teeth. It prolly got some people annoyed HAHA I'm sorry for being a weirdo. These braces ain't cheap, gotta show them off to the world.

They really cost a bomb. I hope my future kids will be blessed with the most beautiful set of teeth and sweetest smiles ever so that I don't have to pay for their braces in future.

And this is the last photo of me before I took them out.

Should I frame it?

This whole braces journey is slowly making me tear up.

And finally now.....

The new me.

I still feel so so sooooooo weird without my braces. I mean, they've been a part of me for about 3 years plus now. I've grown way too attached to them. The amount of time and money I spent cleaning and making sure I would end up with a better set of teeth, I guess they're worth it.

My teeth and I.... we both have come a long way. Now please dear self, please don't be lazy and put on retainers. Braces are NOT cheap. 💪🏼

They say, people with braces look cute. So did I look cute? Oh well, it doesn't matter I'm still cute. 💅🏼

the start of our YouTube career lol

People say, you attract the same kind of people as you.

I know, for sure, that I am weird. I do things that probably makes people who go out with me feel like they should not have asked me out. Crazy? Totally. That is soooooo me. I do and say things normal people don't do or say. 

But thankfully, God has been nice enough to me. He has gifted me with friends who actually want to do all these crazy things with me. In fact, sometimes they initiate it.

Soooooooo, last Sunday, right before Afgan's concert, Syahirah really wanted to make a reaction video. And I agreed to it. (No, I was not forced even though I kept saying I was forced into it. It's all just a joke.)

I cringe whenever I watch myself on screen. Tell me this is totally normal.

But the most shocking thing is, the amount of views on our videos. We did this out of fun, and we probably will do more of such videos (because my friends are enjoying doing such videos way more than I expected!) so stay tuned lol is this the start of our YouTube career HAHA

On another note, I really need to watch my diet, start working out regularly. It's quite obvious that I have gained a lot of weight from these two videos sigh 😪 

two favourite boys on stage

When I say I like guys who are nerdy but cute at the same time, there should only be one person in you head: Afgan. No one else.

He can sing, he can dance, he can rap... well he tried, A for effort la. Oh the list goes on. He's also soooooo cute. He got great fashion sense. Gosh how can someone be so perfect like this, this is so annoying!

I've always wanted to watch him perform live, and I finally did just now. He's so good live and he gives really good fan service.

A makcik actually pounced on him. Yes, a makcik in tudung actually threw herself at him. If I ever become like that when I'm older, please. Please slap me back to reality. He was nice enough to actually just gave her a pat on the back. Such a nice person! 

Initially I was reluctant to buy tickets to his show, but the moment I saw that Sonaone is performing as well.... HELL YEAH I AM GOING. Bought tickets and tada, I caught both of them live. Singing to X. My two favourite boys on stage ugh it's so hard to choose between them!

My Mama's Boy right here apologized to me so badly because he left early and didn't take a photo with me. Such a cutie honestly.

I hope, I really hope one day.... I can marry a nice decent guy. 

After watching Afgan live and listening to all these love songs, I can't wait to get married. I'm planning wedding playlist right now. Heck, actually I'm already planning my wedding now. Minus the groom. HAHA 

Afgan is definitely performing at my future wedding. Best, if he can be the groom.

What's your dream wedding like?