New Beginning

As a student, I've not been a good one.

In fact, the past few years I feel like I've screwed up my life even though some of the people around me do not agree with me. I know they mean good, and then there are some who have been telling me that I'm not working hard enough as a student.

School officially starts for me tomorrow. I hope to start afresh and get my game going. I hope I can be so god damn focused and motivated throughout the year because it's all I have to be.

Time to start from the bottom.

stop hating

Can we all just stop hating?

Music is a form of art. And just like art... to some, a particular form of music is nice. While for others, it makes you question why do people listen to such music.

So I was at Ultra Singapore last weekend for Jay Park and Hyolyn. The article and photos are already up on Officially KMUSIC website. I just completed my article for Dean. Hopefully it'll be up soon.

Ultra Music Festival in Singapore 2016

Anyway, I'm not a fan of EDM. The whole loud bass kinda thing is not my thing. So by the end of the first day, I could not sleep properly because my heart felt some kind of palpitations while I was sleeping. So I didn't had proper sleep even though I was crazily tired from the first day. 

It's also my fault for not wearing earplugs. I usually don't use earplugs during events. I know I should before my hearing gets any worse. It's already bad enough. I should really start wearing earplugs. Thank God on the second day I bought earplugs. I could sleep much better, but still... woke up a few times in the middle of the night, because I could feel some palpitations. Just lesser than the previous day.

It's funny now tho. Because ever since I went to UMF, I've been listening to EDM a lot more than usual. The party animal in me is raging. Kidding.

So, some friends texted me that night, asking me how is it possible that I'm always going for concerts and events. Did I pay for it? Is this my job? How did I get this job? I do not really have the perfect answer. But I feel everything that has happened so far is all destiny. Some concerts I do pay for them myself, some are not.

When I told them I was at Ultra Singapore 2016 for Jay Park and Hyolyn, the way some of them reacted got me really pissed. Even some comments people left on KMUSIC's twitter. I happened to read them and they got me pissed. I've heard of these comments way too many time, honestly.

"Ew. Why is KPOP at Ultra?"

"Why do you like KPOP?"

"What's so special about KPOP?"

And the list goes on and on.

I totally understand people who do not like Korean music. I was not a huge fan of it at first. But there's no need to hate on people who like it. Do nothing but let them do them and you do you if you have nothing nice to say.

KPOP, to many, is all about the post-surgery boys and girls in a group. But I can tell you for sure, it's more than that. The moment people hear Korean words in a song, right away it's a KPOP song. But let me tell you, it's not.

Hip Hop? R&B? Dance? Ballads? Classics? EDM? They have it all, just in their language: Korean.

Go YouTube and check them out.

I wish one day the Malays can be like the Koreans. Proud to sing, dance, laugh, eat... basically do everything in our own language. If we're not proud of our own language and culture, then who will?

Whatever it is, I just hope all of us can respect each other's interest and the reason why Korean artists are invited to perform at a lot of events... I believe, it's because of the fans. If you think I'm crazy enough as a fan, there are more crazier ones. These fans help a lot with the publicity of the event which also means.... $$$ coming in. The power of social media is way more powerful than you think.

One thing we all can do is stop hating. EDM is sooooo you? Nice, I like a few songs. Trot is your thing? Good for you. Hip hop is your jam? I love hip hop too. I'm not only saying it for music. But for everything. Because when you stop hating, you will start loving. And when you start loving, that's when you'll find happiness.

I mean even if you hate, does it really benefit you?

Earrings for Dean

I MET DEAN.

So I had a media session with Dean for his DEAN 130 MOOD: TRBL album promotion. I thought it was like a press conference. But no, it turned out to be an up close interview session with other media sites. 

I was clearly not prepared for that.

Thank God Widad was with me to keep me sane.

I haven't been talking much about this girl right here. But really, we're closer than you think HAHA all thanks to... Jay Park, really. She didn't really keep me sane the whole time because she's a huge fan of him as well. But good enough, at least both of us ended up screaming our fangirl hearts out to each other.

She told me that my earrings today were really the highlight. Well, Nenek gave it to me during Hari Raya Haji the other day after buying it somewhere for $1 each. I swear today I made the best choice in my life by wearing very minimal amount of makeup and put on these earrings. I thought they were too much at first, but hey they made Dean all shy while talking to me. I am not lying guys, it was caught on video.

He tried stealing some glances while acting all shy.

And no guys, I swear this is not delusional side of me talking.

Thanks to this particular guy from Bandwagon who talked to Dean and asked for a photo. All the media from my group got at least a selfie with Dean. I got five, don't ask me how. I'm amazed at my persuasion skills sometimes. I wish I could thank that Bandwagon guy but I didn't see him during the Autograph session. Yes I was there too and I took really up close videos of him. 

I know I sound like a freak.

But I'm not, really.

So many things I found out about Dean today. And boy, the way he looked at me... I wish boys will act all shy like him while looking at me and then try to strike up a conversation with me. That will be oh so perfect. I swear it was the earrings that really made him fell for me. I'm sure he fell for me. I could feel it. Everyone should buy these earrings, the results are phenomenal.

His favourite song from his album is 21, and that got me shocked for a while. Because why? That's my favourite song too. What fate is this? He is my soulmate. I just can't express enough how happy I am to be able to meet Dean and actually have photos together with him. All those DMs to him were worth it baby. God gave me what I wanted and I can never thank God enough.

I took photos with Dean.

I touched him. He touched me.

We are officially together everyone. 💕

#keepthattonguetoyourselfboy

Ultra Singapore, done

UMF is finally over! 🎉

I had a great time doing this event even though every part of me was scared at first. I made a lot of new friends. I learnt a lot honestly. One thing for sure, I hope one day I can have my own music festival.

You guys have no idea how proud I was walking around with this tag on.

So much effort was being put in to achieve this pass.

*kisses it with so much love*

I came for Jay Park and Hyolyn. Mostly the effort I put in is all for Jay... but I also took the chance to check out the other acts. EDM is not my thing. I do listen to a few songs but that's pretty much it. After some time, EDM makes me feel like I'm about to go way too crazy.

In fact during the festival, Nab, Daya and I felt like we were in The Purge. People walking around, half drunk and all high, some barely even have some cloth on them while waving their national flags... I swear the whole scene kinda reminds me of The Purge. But that's the way people are at music festivals. We just gotta toughen up HAHA

It was raining the night before the start of Ultra Singapore, so it was pretty muddy and I honestly thought the event is in an air-conditioned place so I was just wearing my normal Charles&Keith flats. To my horror, it was held outside of MBS. No aircon, under the scorching hot sun. With muddy ground. 

I came back home with my flats all destroyed. Tried to wash and dry it, still cannot be saved. I really need new shoes now but sigh, money ain't on my side for now.

Some people who came wore slippers. They eventually slipped and fell. Their bodies all covered in mud and some couldn't even find their missing slippers. So they went home barefooted.

Note to self: If you're going to a music festival, always remember to wear a cheap (worn-out, that'll be even better) pair of shoes. 

I tried to be like a DJ just now. Oh well. I will share more soon. There are so many things I wish to share. But finally I'm feeling a little sleepy after the event. So gooooooood night!

Oh, and Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha to all other fellow Muslims! 🌙

nab turns 22

Nab is finally 22 today! 🎉

We've been closer than ever as time passes by. People who know about our history during secondary school are probably wondering how things got better between us. We had a MESSY fight. So messy the whole school knew about it. Today, we both just laugh whenever we talk about it. How did we just let go of everything and be the best of friends now? It's simple. Just let your ego down, learn to forgive and God wills, you'll find the best in each other.

Initially, I wanted to surprise her at her workplace but that girl got me in panic mode for a while. Currently she's working at HTA's canteen. So dear boys, y'all can cuci mata if you buy food there. This girl is definitely aging well, she's getting prettier over time.

So she told me that she would be ending work at 2 plus (around 2:50) so I already made plans to arrive at HTA around 2:15 with all the surprise stuff ready. But at 2, she texted me that she was already on the way home. Got me so shocked!

Worst part, she told me she's going to Lot 1 and I was at Lot 1. So I had to ask some random strangers who were eating at KFC to help me out with the bouquet and balloons. The things I would do just to make sure that the surprise looks pretty much legit...

I had to change my plans from HTA to her house. Thank God her mum and her siblings were so supportive over the surprise. They invited me into the house right away!

I bought 9 pink balloons to represent her love for Girls' Generation and then... the salesgirl told me to get 1 more balloon so that it's cheaper so I took another balloon (I wanted a white one, but the next best thing that they had was a black one) and I saw a bouquet of flowers. I was contemplating whether to get it, of course I had to get it. I'm such a hopeless romantic HAHA

Nab's mum was cooking homemade Shellout for the birthday girl and she invited me to join as well. Really, my luck! Can't say no to seafood 😁  The food was sooooooooo good. Nab and I ended up having food coma after that. 

Nab and Her Family

Her house is becoming my third home, I swear.

(Daya's house is my second home.)

She finally didn't have to recycle her dad's birthday cake for her birthday this year. 😅

I wish you all the very best in whatever you wanna do in life. I know I can rely on you for support, and you too, definitely can rely on me for support. Thank you for everything, especially the part where I'm that clingy friend oops xx

Happy 22nd birthday boo! 💓

My hair is in a mess thanks to her cats.

ketchup, i meant catch up

It's a dark period for me right now. I know I can get through it with time. As of now, I'm telling myself that I'm okay when I know very well that I'm not... But it's perfectly fine because I have people around me to tell me that I'm much stronger than I really am.

Put that issue aside for now. I had a great time the past few days despite looking way too distracted than usual. Just catch-up sessions with those I haven't been keeping up with... I still have a lot of other people that I owe catch-up sessions with. Sorry y'all.

I had a great lunch session with Izzati who's leaving for UK this 21st on Tuesday. Hopefully by the time she comes back, she'll be a dietician and we Malays can benefit from her healthy recipes.

We went to KRAVE since my original plan to bring her to HYDE&CO. failed big time. HYDE&CO. closes every Tuesday apparently and me being not a cafe person and always over-confident, I didn't bother checking if the cafe was opened. Thank God there were other cafes that were opened.

All we did was just catching up because I have been missing out a lot ever since I transferred to the Upper Secondary level for MAEC.

I then met up with Mas and Daya for Makisan after meeting Izzati. Daya didn't eat because she's on this whole low carb diet. I wanted to be on a diet because I'm meeting my boy very soon but it kinda fail.

We spent time talking about GD, marriage life for Mas and... I think that's pretty much it?

Now that she stays all the way in Punggol, we rarely meet. MAEC has changed so much over the years. I started joining MAEC in 2012 and boy time really flies. I've changed so much... we all do. We definitely grow with time. And as far as I see it, we have grown to be more mature even though it may not seem like it.

To many more years together 🎉

Anyway, my article for GFRIEND is up on Officially KMUSIC's site. I swear this article is so mehhhh because I don't really have the mood to write articles these days and because... I'm not really a huge fan of them. Sorry Buddies.

GFRIEND L.O.L Showcase in Singapore

mood, where ya at

I don't know what's going on with me right now.

I just can't find the right words to write the article due for GFRIEND. Heck, I don't even have the right words to blog.

No mood to do anything.

Ya Allah, what is up with meeeeeeeeeeee

fine dining at home

Daya always cooks for me. Kimbap? Sushi? Tteokbokki? You name it. She's probably waiting for the time I will cook for her. Wait a little bit more boo. 😘

I know this seems crazy, but whenever I cook, I never got the guts to let other people who are not family to taste my cooking. I mean, it's okay if my brothers get food poisoning because... well, they got no choice. That's what you get for being my brother. Plus if you get sick, I will only have to handle my parents. But not my friends. If they fall sick because of my cooking and their parents come hunting down for me, I'm in deep shit. Thank God, so far my brothers are still living and healthy despite countless times of diarrhoea because of my cooking.

So yesterday, both of us couldn't decide what to eat. Fast food? Tired of it. Pastamania? Don't feel like it. Noodles? Rice? Can't decide. So I told her, how about she cooks for me? And she did. So, she came up with a healthy version of aglio olio.

While cooking, both of us just wanted to act all atas. Like we're having some fine dining. What's missing were probably some candles. We even dimmed the lights to get the right mood, while sipping some red wine F&N Cherry.

If you're always eating out like us, you should really try cooking at home once in a while. Especially if you're always busy, now is the time for you to bond with each other while preparing the food.

Just let me warn you first, there will be a lot of dishes to wash HAHA and for someone like me who hates doing dishes but always do it in the end because I hate dirty dishes... all the best to you!

Try it, cook with your loved ones 💕

I do it once in a while with my brothers too.