a rich fangirl, that's the goal

Can I just say today is one of the happiest days of my life?

DEAN IS COMING TO SINGAPORE.

Dean is getting more popular now. I mean, his voice can make you just wanna grind him up all night. HAHA sorry but really, that's the reality when you listen to his songs.

Alright let me put it in a more halal way.

Whenever you listen to his songs, all you wanna do is chill in the bar and waiting for that perfect person to appear. Then when he/she appears, all you wanna do is dance with that person and that night will be the most memorable night for you.

This is my favourite song from Dean. I listened to this song a lot prior to turning 22, because then I'm no longer 21. No regrets, one of the best decisions I've made.

Jay Park is coming next weekend.

Dean is coming this 14th September 2016.

Bigbang is coming this 2nd October 2016.

Why am I still not paid by being a fan? Sometimes I wonder... like is there a way I can make all the fangirls in the world earn money by just being a fan? I mean yeah, there are plenty of jobs like being a fansite master, taking photos and compiling them into a book and then sell them to earn money. But I want something more sustainable.

I need to find a way to support myself to be a fan for life. So at least my efforts of being a fan is not gone to waste. Trust me, being a fan is not easy. The super duper expensive price tickets, the amount of effort I put in just so to see them. Ok whatever, all these hardships... I put it upon myself HAHA sigh

Can I make a career out of this whole fangirling phase?

why YG why

Life has been nothing but a whole roller coaster ride for me. 

There are days I feel like I'm all happy like seriously sooooooo high like I just drank some booze. Then there are days when I feel really low like I can just look up at the sky and cry my heart out. People around me keep asking me whether I'm going through depression, well I don't know? Am I? I don't think so... I mean, isn't feeling this way pretty normal? Isn't this how life is like?

If there's one thing good that have been happening to me for quite some time, it's my fate with all these idols. I know this sounds stupid to so many people out there. But really, I consider myself pretty lucky on this and I can never stop thanking God for all the opportunities.

BIG BANG IS COMING TO SINGAPORE AGAIN.

YG released this just now, and that got me screaming like crazy! I miss Bigbang so much. Through Bigbang, I've met so many people. I've gotten close to so many people who are now so dear to me. I won't be surprised if the love of my life one day could be working in YG (hint: DONG YOUNGBAE) like imagine, I'm all crazy at one of YG concerts and then bam, our eyes meet and sparks fly ✨

Alright back to reality. Ticket sales start this weekend. I swear YG always asks for money at the wrong time. I'm kinda broke right now, but I can't miss this because God knows when, the boys will come back to Singapore.

Also, that means finally I'm gonna meet Bennie again. So much to catch up with that dude! Time to eat grass from now on, because I owe him a meal. 

Oh YG, you always know when to strike.

Anyone wanna give me some sponsorships? 

Because I really need it.

you and i, us

A memorable night for me.

Oh good old days. I miss them. I should have spent those times together more wisely, but at the same time, I'm glad how things turned out.

I miss you. I miss us.

ultimate aim: jannah

Basically, how I felt the moment I entered Aisah's room just now... Photos of her loved ones on her side of the room. She shares her room with her stepsister. (Oh and that double chin got to go man.)

I saw pictures of us together with Azura... back in 2013 when the three of us were busy mugging for A's. Memories came flashing back, and we had one of the best h2h talks we ever had.

Too many things I wish I can share but I believe that it is better to keep them off the Internet. (Honestly, we talked about so many things so I forgot about what we really talked about. 😂 ) But what I'm glad to share is the fact that with time, our friendship has grown so much.

We used to talk about how hard it is to get into university, but now... we're talking about BIG things. Like legit SERIOUS topics... when to apply a house or when to get married, and whether I should be her bridesmaid? I mean girl, you have no choice but to make me your bridesmaid HAHA

I've not been in a good mood the past few weeks. Not sure why... my appetite ain't that good, I've not been eating well. I don't really feel like meeting anyone much. Going out of the house seems like a struggle these days.

But today, I had a good time laughing with my girl right here while lying on her bed.

And things got even better when Daya and I had a good talk about friendship.

This, my fellow readers, is how #friendshipgoals should be like.

At the end of the day, I hope to see everyone I love in heaven, together with me. We may not be the best Muslims in the world, but I know as long as we work towards being one, Allah SWT will always be by our sides.

To be blessed by Allah SWT both in this temporary world and in hereafter, that's the ultimate aim.

And well, think about it. If there's a bar in Jannah, I'll probably be the number one customer. Lepaskan geram because I'm not allowed to do it in dunia HAHA 🍻

Let's all work hard to be the future residents of Jannah. 💪🏼

Begging to Allah SWT with this "act cute" face, does it work this way?

I wish HAHA

PULANG

Sonaone. Oh that boy, Mika.

He's getting more popular.

I know I should be happy for him. I mean, I am. But I'm also not... Right now, I'm like a jealous girlfriend. So many girls, like NO KIDDING, soooooooo many girls are fans of him now. That also means that I have more competitors now 😭

I've been playing this song way too many times. I mean, it's Yuna with my boy. Sigh, she's always getting the boys I like. She got Usher, she got Sona. HOW DO I BE HER, can someone please help me? Is there any type of surgery I can do to get a good singing voice? 😢

If you haven't listen to this song yet, you should because duh, it's my boy Sona right there HAHA alright put him aside, this song is goooooooood. Yuna's voice, as always da bomb! But I have to be honest about this... Sona always sounds so weird when he sings in Malay. His matsaleh celup accent is way too obvious. I think I speak better Malay than him, hands down HAHA

Even though Daya thinks Sona ain't that good of a singer, I still love his songs. I still love him. She thinks I'm tone deaf, whatever. 🙄

Izzati texted me early in the morning yesterday about this song. She agreed with me that this song is good after introducing it to her last Sunday. I mean, every single song Sona releases is good... You can have my word now that this song is good.

Anyway, the moment I listened to this song, all I wanted to do was to get myself into a LDR. Makes me wanna go on Tinder and pay for that distance fee and you know... just hit on some guy who's probably miles away from me. Maybe, just maybe... he'll be so in love with me and wanna come all the way to Singapore for me. We all know in the real world, that is crazily freaky.

I'm glad that Sonaone is getting more and more known by public. Earn more money with your talent boy, so that if one day you and I get married... we are so ready for it. #delusionalfan

first birthday party for the first niece

Ayra is officially 1!

That also means I've been an aunty for a year.

She may not remember a single thing. Heck, who remembers what happened on their first birthday anyway 🙄 But one thing for sure, she is lucky to have so many people around her celebrating her first birthday. All her loved ones by her side... and to me, that is real happiness. Something money can never buy.

Dear Ayra,

I hope you grow up to be a wonderful girl. Not only pretty, but with a good character and the brains. Even though your great grandparents (aka my grandparents) didn't get the opportunity to see you here, I know for sure they will love you a lot. Also even though you're always crying, please know that crying is not the answer to all the problems. Toughen up, little girl. I love you a lot even though I suck at taking care of you. 

Love,

Your Aunty Syafiqah

And one thing for sure, when you're old enough, I'm gonna teach you how to take a proper selfie.

LIFTED

Everyone knows how much I love CL.

At times, I wish I can be her.

I call her unnie when really, she doesn't even know I exist in this world. But soon, I will work hard so that one day she and I can hang out and be the best of friends. That's my goal HAHA

She finally came back with a new song. You know how YG always takes a looooooong time to release a new song. So, finally a new song from my unnie! This song shows the laid back version of CL. If you've listened to Hello Bitches or Doctor Pepper, you would know by now, how YG always makes CL do "loud" songs. But this song, I just love it. I love the chiller version CL. Listen to it a few times, trust me it'll get to you... 😉

Hey you, get off my cloud, you don't know me and you don't know my style 🎶

support

Zarifah, Aisah and I

One of the few things I can never thank Allah SWT enough for is the fact that He has gifted me with so many wonderful people in my life. I know I've said this way too many times, but really... I'm just stating the truth.

I had a great time with these two girls and they have been nothing but a great support system. Always believing in me, and really... I know our friendship will only get better from here. Success, it doesn't come easy but I know one day, I will be able to achieve it.

My great support system 💕

dark

My results were out yesterday and well, I didn't do as well as expected. Right now, I'm like a lost sheep. I don't know what's the next best move but one thing for sure, I still wanna study.

I am just praying for miracles to happen and for that to happen, I'm leaving it up to Allah SWT.

I know I have disappointed so many people, and I don't plan to disappoint them even more. I just hope I will find my way getting through this soon.

Insomnia, loss of appetite... oh this is such a dark period.

Fall.

Because all I hope for is things to go my way this time.

May Allah SWT gives me that chance.

Syahirah's choped!

Last Saturday, my very good friend Syahirah got engaged to the love of her life! 

I was so glad to be able to witness it. She told Daya, Haris and I in our group chat about her engagement weeks ago and well, it slipped our minds. Like seriously, we are not the best type of friends to have. Thank God she reminded us (more like... inviting us for the second time) that very morning and as usual, Daya and I didn't have plans on that Saturday.

It's such a wonderful feeling (but at the same time, scary) to be engaged. Next thing you know, you're married and bam, no more lazing around HAHA let's hope in future, when I'm married and I got lazy, someone please slap me out of it.

Syahirah looked amazing that day. She has always been pretty but that day, makeup on point 💯  I mean, of course your makeup got to be on point on that day and of course, your wedding day. 

What I love about her engagement is how simple it is. Engagements and weddings are meant to be simple but people nowadays forget about that. At the end of the day, all you need is people who truly care for you to celebrate with you on these huge milestones you've made in life.

I can't wait for Syahirah and Isa to get married and make cute babies because duh, look at the both of them. They'll make cute babies for Aunty Syafiqah to play with. 

Congratulations Syahirah! 🎉

kush kush baby

Dudududu, Machine Gun

Nab and I with Kush

Today is a really memorable day for me. Everyone knows I'm a big fan of YG. Almost everything YG... I like. So when I received a call from Nab about YG people in Singapore for Christian Dada's opening, I was screaming in public. No joke, all eyes were on me.

I was hoping to see Taeyang, GD and CL there. But I didn't see them there. And just a few moments ago, GD updated that he's in Korea right now. So I guess I'm not fated to meet them yet, soon Syafiqah soon... always have faith that Allah has better things in store for you. 

The security was not pretty happy that I asked for a photo but thank God Kush was so nice to us. I even told him, "I really like you in SMTM." No idea why I said that but I guess I ran out of words to say. Papa YG was also there, sadly I didn't dare to approach him. I will... one day.

Bae, I'm getting closer to you. I can feel it. 💕

more like a friend

Last week was the most "lepak" event coverage I have ever done for KMusic and it's amazing how the Singapore team is slowly expanding. I'm getting to know more and more people who are not just in love with K-Pop, they are CRAZY over everything Korean.

Rapper/Singer Samuel Seo and I

This dude right here is pretty underrated so not many people know him. He had his showcase last week at Baliza, and on that very same day, Selena Gomez came to party after his showcase. Oh what can I say, I'm on the same level as Selena 💅🏼

I never heard of him before this and after talking to him for quite some time, he felt more like a friend than a celebrity. I love it when people who are famous (well he has fans, he's already more famous than me at least) make me feel like I can be their friend. 😌

My favourite song from him is New Dress Girl.

Recent event coverage articles:

Samuel Seo First Showcase and Meet & Greet in Singapore

Shine Festival feat Jay Park

GOT7 Fly in Singapore

0 to 10, bang bang bang

Big Bang is my ultimate favourite K-pop group.

And you know how many K-pop boy groups I've met. I've been to so many concerts, not just K-pop concerts. Looking back at the amount I spent on concerts, damn I could have saved nearly $10K (or maybe more) if I don't spend it on these celebrities. 

Do I regret? Not really... I got to meet really amazing people in my life. Friends I never thought would mean so much to me! Ask me again when I'm broke, I'll probably say I regret HAHA

I just came back from watching Bigbang Made with Daya and Cynthia. The movie was great, especially for fans like us. We laughed, we felt like crying half way through the movie... and then we laughed again. 

I am definitely missing every single moment I've spent at YG concerts. I miss dancing and singing to songs from YG artists, especially Bigbang songs... Only VIPs will understand me.

Bigbang, come back soon to Singapore! 💕