amirah's grad party

Few weeks back, Amirah made a celebration at her place for her graduation. And we all had such adult talks about post-graduation, working life, settling down, paying bills etc. I'm turning 25 in a few months and till now, when people ask me what's my plan for the future, I still have got nothing planned out. Well I used to have everything planned out and most of my plans didn't go as planned so now I'm really living the whole "go with the flow" life.

Veda, Weed and I continued to hang out at the airport after that. We used to see each other everyday so the time spent at the airport catching up was necessary to me.

Need to graduate as soon as possible.

Need to lose weight.

tears

As I'm typing this, I'm crying. I've been crying for the past 30 minutes and it annoys me so much because I don't understand why I'm crying so much...

Exams are less than a month away and in my opinion, I'm nowhere near ready. It has been stressing me out so much and tonight I just can't take it anymore.

My family and friends have been nothing but amazing, trying to motivate me... my boyfriend does it too. I know he's feeling even more stressed than I am right now.

I haven't been feeling this down for quite some time. I just hope this time these tears will be worth it.